Day 2

So another day bites the dust. After today I am not sure that continental is going to give me any of my own properties, but I will probably be an assistant property manager. I am just going to take it as it comes, and be glad that I have income coming in. I guess I am a little disappointed that I am not going to make the cut, but I mean I am moving anyway so it's for the best. I guess I just want things to be perfect and that's just not the way life is. I don't know what happened to me... I used to be so care free and just blowing with the wind. Now I over analyze everything, and worry about everything. I really hate it. I don't want to be that kind of person. My birthday is coming up this weekend. I am really sad, and depressed. I know that it doesn't seem like a very big deal to anyone else, but not being with my sister is really hard for me. For the last 21 years we have always spent our birthday together, and now for the first time we will both be alone. I just want it to pass by so I don't have to think about it. I guess it was bound to happen eventually. I should just get over it.

Izzy is now officially signed with this head hunter and has been assured that they will find him a job. I hope that everything works out. They seem to believe that they can find him a job pretty quick, or at least a lot faster than we could. So I suppose we could move a lot sooner. That would make me very happy. I am ready to make a home for my family. I can't wait to just be home and happy. will write more later.